So, I have decided to vent/tell my story of this glorious 2015, one the worst years of my life. Well the year started off pretty bittersweet. I lost my roommate due to stupid pity drama with her bestfriend and I, so I moved back in with my mom. Then,...

So, I have decided to vent/tell my story of this glorious 2015, one the worst years of my life. Well the year started off pretty bittersweet. I lost my roommate due to stupid pity drama with her bestfriend and I, so I moved back in with my mom. Then, I was struggling really badly at work and stressing out so much that my health was at risk, so I decided to quit before I was fired. I then got an awesome job at Toyota and I loved everything about it. My co-workers were all very supportive and caring. I became close with many people at that job and some, a certain one, I got too close with. Before I jump ahead of myself, I’ll explain the events in between that day I got too close with on co-worker. Well I’ll call him Bob. Bob was the person who got me the job at Toyota and we became close friends. I would confide in him about personal things and would also go out to karaoke and dance with him. Well my sister made it a point that sense I had a great job, a car, and a good head on my shoulders that I needed a man in my life. I met a guy through my sister’s boyfriend and things were great until we all went up to the cabin. I drank way too much (day drinking tequila) and well I did some things that night I would soon regret. I woke up in the middle of the night to him touching in a place he shouldn’t have been touching. I woke up and told my sister and she reacted completely different than what I would have expected her to…she laughed. After that I wasn’t really the same but I didn’t want to talk to anybody in fear they would laugh at me too so I kept it to myself. Well after that I stayed single for some time. Just tried to forget about it all and tried not to feel anything. I decided that I was ready for getting back out there and date. I dated here and there but nothing too serious. Then one night I invited Bob over for a movie night and we were drinking, him more heavily than I. I passed out and I found out he didn’t. Again I woke up to another man putting his hands on me as I slept. The problem with this one was that he was my co-worker and a really trusted friend. He also had a girlfriend, which whom I told and she took it way too lightly (she’s still with him…). After that I told my manager that I had to leave early from work due to my sexual battery and my manager gave me some tips and guidelines on what to do. After that I had another day off and when I came back to work thinking I was strong enough to handle it I came to realize that I was worse off than ever…I then went into my managers office after some deep thought and told my manager who sexually touched me, he tried to argue my case with my HR, but they thought it’d be best if I just quit my job sense it was drastically affecting my work performance and I didn’t want to press charges against Bob. Well I filed a police report without pressing charges, lost my job, lost most of my new friends, and lost the only sanity I had left. Now I’m experiencing mood swings, irritability, suicidal thoughts, and either exhaustion or restlessness. My family thinks I had BPD and some just think it’s stress. I’ve also been called a sociopath. All of this is just getting to me so bad. Not only that but I’m trying to be as normal as I can be due to lack of acceptance and fear of abandonment. The only person who seems even remotely into me after all of this is the guy that I’m talking to. He seems to really understand what I’m going through and what my real intentions are. I just needed to write all of this out. By the way a lot more happened this year but they weren’t the big life changers.

Thanks for reading. Hopeful that 2016 will be better to me.

Thank you.

I’d like to take a second to thank my recent ex best friend for what he did to me. Thank for showing me that I should be more aware of the little things because if I were before you did what you did I would’ve seen it coming. Thank you for completely screwing up my world because if you wouldn’t have I would have never known who my true friends are. Thank you for waking me up to how terrible alcohol really is because if it wasn’t for alcohol you wouldn’t have spent the night that night. Thank you for ruining my career because if you wouldn’t have done that I would never have come running back to Jesus and I would also have never had the courage to move out of this God forsaken town. So even though I know you will never read this, I’d like to say thank you for destroying my life in such a beautiful manner.

kushandwizdom:
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“nospockdasgay:
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“ So proud of my mother for doing her own research after I sent her that meme. A sign she hung in her car...

kushandwizdom:

hello-missdolly:

beanmom:

nospockdasgay:

redbloodedamerica:

mallninjacode:

pual1010:

brownglucose:

stunningpicture:

So proud of my mother for doing her own research after I sent her that meme. A sign she hung in her car window.

Stay woke

Is this true?

Not only is it true, it gets worse. The Susan G Komen For The Cure Foundation has actually successfully sued “competing” charities, because (paraphrasing) their “message or branding was infringing.”

You read that correctly: they took money that people had donated to cure cancer, and hired attorneys with it, to sue ANOTHER group of people trying to find a cure for cancer, who, in turn, had to us their donated money to hire their own legal counsel to defend themselves.

Yeah signal boost because not enough people know about this and seriously FUCK SUSAN G. KOMEN THEY ARE THE ACTUAL WORST

Some links…

http://thinkbeforeyoupink.org/

http://www.somethingawful.com/feature-articles/for-the-cure/

http://thestir.cafemom.com/in_the_news/132728/susan_g_komen_foundation_has

(reblogged in honor of my mother, who died of breast cancer, 11/13/97)

Reblog every time I see it. Roughly once a month.

Cancer is a business. Our loved ones are dying over greed. There are alternative cures for cancer that these people ignore because they cannot profit from it. Please research the benefits of hemp oil. Thank you.

(via dakotification)

Goodnight//if you ever need prayer I’m here for you.

Goodnight//if you ever need prayer I’m here for you.

This girl is on fire. Tried make myself pretty on the outside since I don’t feel so pretty on the inside. #optimism #screwbeingsick

This girl is on fire. Tried make myself pretty on the outside since I don’t feel so pretty on the inside. #optimism #screwbeingsick

screwbeingsick optimism

Those days when you’re just too sick to get out of bed but you still do. That’s the day I’m having.

Those days when you’re just too sick to get out of bed but you still do. That’s the day I’m having.


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